Wednesday, January 02, 2008

bring it on 2008

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that frightens us" Marianne Williamson

I have been mulling over this past year. It all kind of leaves a bad taste in my mouth. There were highlights of course and I am thankful of this past year watching my kids grow and change. But for me personally it was a low year. Lots of inner struggle and too much transition for one lifetime. I am here and I am looking to climb the next mountain.. just knowing somewhere deep down this next year is going to look better. To re-emerge..........

I feel its so important to establish what I am longing for and looking for this year. I am not into making resolutions - not many seem to ever stick and I also don't' need another thing I feel I have to live up to. That just sounds stressful. I have been thinking of my one little word for 2008, something I can look to as a yardstick to measure life by. My word this year is Simplify. It seems fitting and feels kind of like a cold drink of water. To simplify my thoughts, my belief system and all my other moments. To embrace the chaos in my life and live out of simplicity.

I have been on a rediscovery for some time. A battle. Circumstances fighting whats inside of me. I've felt tired, wounded and just a bit raw. There is nothing wrong with raw in fact its one of those things i love. Vulnerability and the realness that comes with being raw its just that some days its so tiring. I guess I just want to be ok with the struggle to embrace it as my valley's; those low places we sit in sometimes while we wait for the strength to make it up the mountains. I want to see lots of mountains this year to be still and capture those heights.

I also want to acknowledge that I deserve the best, not just good but the very best things. I want to walk in a belief that just knows down to the core that I am lovely and deserving of all the best this life (my life) has to offer.

So to carry on I want to live out Simplicity and remember every day that small adjustments make huge miracles! Because the aim of life is to live and to live means to be aware. Joyously, serenely, divinely aware.

5 comments:

Dixie Vandersluys said...

I'm with you, Heather. :)

Adventures In Babywearing said...

That is a wonderful quote. So true.

Steph

Stacey said...

I wonder why it is that these feelings just seem to come back. I remember the first year after Rowan was born was super tough. I know that's not all of what you are feeling and talking about, but I can relate in some small way, and I know it sucks.

Simplicity is truly what I'm hoping for too this year. Hope to see you at stay and play when it starts up again.

valerie said...

Right on, Heather. Sounds like a fabulous word for you this year - and I feel it - 2008 is your year :)

Stacie said...

I've loved that quote for years.

I hope that 2008 brings you good things and is a fabulous year for you.

Simplicity is a gift and a hard one at that. We try to hide within complexity. I hope that Simplicity is good to you. (((hug)))